As the year ends…
31st December…
… and so this year too ends. Like all years. Frankly I have stopped comparing them. They have all been surprising in their own ways. Eli is not at home. I am alone.
I went on a walk in the evening. I was feeling very bored sitting at home. I had my coffee, plugged my earphones and strolled out. The road was empty. There wasn’t anyone on it for a long time. I saw someone drive past in a motorbike as I was about to take the fork in the road that leads to the stream. I wonder where he got the fuel for his bike. I am running low of fuel. I need to source them from somewhere. I have asked a couple of my friends if they could get me some from the black market. They said they will get back to me in a couple of days time. I should remember to check on them soon.
I remember this stream from my childhood days. I used to come with my grandfather here to take a bath maybe once in a month or so. It is a bit far away from my home and my parents wouldn’t allow me to go and take a bath on a daily basis. No one did that even in those lush green fruitful times. How I wish I did all that then. No point in talking about it now.
The stream runs bare. There is water. The scant amount of water that you expect to see towards the end of the year. It drizzled a bit in the afternoon. I sat down to eat my lunch and the sky had turned grey. It drizzled for a while. It became moody. I wish the sun popped out and stayed and lit the whole atmosphere then and there itself. The mood was a bit depressing of sorts. I don’t want to go into that mood now. Not that I have depression and all but I guess its kind of become a lifestyle now and you do everything in your power to stay bright and cheerful and shine the light that you can muster. It’s not easy by any means. Tell me to shine the little light I have and I must say it is very difficult. Today I wasn’t haven’t much of a light also. Eli isn’t here. She is my light bringer. I am not joking here. She will come tomorrow. I might have to go and pick her up. I have the fuel to go and pick her up. After that I will run dry. I need to follow up on my friends soon. Need to put that in my reminder list.
Saying goodbye to this year with a glass of scotch that my friends had gifted me for my birthday. I am grateful to them. This will be my company tonight.
